Well, today is the 30th. That’s the official due date. And, unless things get under way rather quickly, it doesn’t look like this baby is going to come out today.
Saw my Dr. this afternoon. Nothing to report except that last week I was measuring 38 weeks and this week I am measuring 42. That sounds scarily like a large baby! But he said it was probably just the position the baby was in. Was that supposed to make me feel better?
He did make me an appointment for induction one week from today if nothing happens by then. I CANNOT imagine another full week like this. I’m not exaggerating when I say I have nothing left that covers the belly except one big brown hoodie. NOTHING! I’m SO stretched out in the front that I fear my skin may break open. It’s not a pretty sight.
I also might be getting a little worried about the birth. I really want the VBAC but I’m scared because I feel like this baby is quite a bit larger than C was. I couldn’t push her out, how can I get a bigger one out?
Pray for me please. thanks 🙂
For some reason my brain tried to tell me that the baby was coming yesterday. I should know better than to listen to my brain. She’s failed me so many times before.
It would have been pretty inconvenient to have a baby yesterday or last night since my daughter contracted some sort of communicable disease (ok, a head cold), no doubt from the kid I heard hacking up a lung in her sunday school class the other day. She was up half the night and the poor little thing is tired and feeling pretty rotten today. I put her in her room for nap time about ten minutes ago and haven’t heard a peep. That’s saying something since rest time usually consists of her singing many verses of Old MacDonald Had a Farm, or some version of various songs she makes up in her head.
Anyway, I had a little panic this morning thinking that if I did go into labour that it would be horrible to have a baby that C wouldn’t be allowed to kiss or snuggle if she was sick. But a still, small voice re-assured me that everything would be ok. I don’t know if that means the baby won’t come till next week or if she does that she’ll be fine but I felt better having listened to the still, small voice who understands my worries and tries to make them go away.
God is very good to me, even when I don’t deserve it. Funny how that always amazes me. You’d think I’d get it by now.
Mom predicted I would have the baby on the 21st. That was yesterday. No baby.
I woke up with Mike’s alarm at 5:25am and immediatly, the thought, “today’s the day” came to mind. Well, I certainly hope so but I’m not holding my breath.
I feel like maybe possibly the baby has dropped but I don’t know because I don’t remember if C dropped and what that may have felt like. But I do feel more heaviness and pressure down lower when I stand up. And I find the muscles around the c-section scar to be kinda crampy feeling if I get up too fast. Hmmm.
Anyway, I need to stop obsessing because who knows, maybe she’ll be late.
Please don’t be late little baby.
I want this baby to come out now. Do I really have to wait 2 more weeks? I hope not. C was 4 days early but I know I can’t count on that. She’s just getting really heavy in there and I feel the need to let you all know that. Besides, we want to meet her and snuggle her and smell her head and stuff. And, you know, find her a name.
I had a dream the other night that I had two babies. Yup, two. A boy and a girl. I mean, we’d deal if we ever had twins but I’m a one baby at a time kinda girl. BUT, the up side of the dream was a pain free, quick labour and delivery…which was NOT the case last time.
I have a different mind set going into this delivery though. I know I do. And I know most of all that whatever is set to happen is in God’s hands. I feel good about that 🙂
I finally packed a bag for the hospital. Mike was getting nervous because I hadn’t put anything together yet. Especially when I was getting some decent braxton hicks the other night. So, I’m prepared now. Ready to fly out the door at a moments notice…yeah right. I guess I didn’t hurry in packing this time since I had HOURS of labour before I even went to the hospital last time. I don’t expect things to go much faster. But you never know I guess.
We (and of course I mean Mike) painted the baby’s room which was formerly the playroom. I’ll post before and after pics when we get it all set up. It looks way better. I didn’t realize how much I disliked that yellow room till it wasn’t yellow anymore. I still need curtains in there though.
Ok, I’m outta here. must go lie down. Too much effort to be upright 🙂
Well, I promised to do better this week with my review…I feel better today but I still don’t know if that means my review will be any better…I’ll try.
There were, again, lots of verses throughout the week that stood out and convicted me of so many things that I really need to change.
I don’t believe I disclosed last week what topic I have been concentrating on. It’s anger. I tend to have an anger problem. I can’t seem to bite my tongue when I’m feeling angry either so that’s one thing I really need to work on. My family deserves better than what I have been giving them. So, this Proverbs study has been great in showing me my foolishness.
Proverbs 6:21 tells children to “keep thier (parents) words always in your hearts.” If I am not giving my daughter anything worth keeping in her heart than I am not doing the job that God has given me. Big stuff.
So here’s another verse that stood out to me. Chapter 10:19 “Don’t talk too much, for it fosters sin. Be sensible and turn off the flow!” Yup, that’s some good advice. Keep your mouth shut, Jenn, even when you’re angry. Hard to do but so worth it.
And here’s some more Proverb-y goodness: 12:18 – “A fool is quick tempered but a wise person stays calm when insulted” I don’t even need to be insulted to know that I need to bite my tongue more often. I’m a fool.
Anyway, so much to take in. Even though I know better already, being convicted by the Holy Spirit through reading God’s word makes it all new and important…very important.
Why does the word “stepping” look wrong? I think I’m losing what’s left of my mind…
Anyway, a while back, Shannon at watchthesky did a series of posts on womens roles in the church and family and such things. There was much discussion and thought on what would happen if the women stepped back from some of the programs and let the men take those roles by simply getting out of the way. I was one of the skeptics at first that figured if we women left it to the men, it simply wouldn’t get filled in.
Well, I’m here to tell you I was wrong. At least in my family anyway. Now don’t get me wrong, there are still lots of things that I need to be getting out of the way of for my husband, and I’m learning, but I would like to report some progress on one front.
In case you didn’t know I’m having a baby real soon…I hope real soon anyway. So I am taking at least this year off as an AWANA leader.
Well, wouldn’t you know I got out of the way and my husband made the decision to give being a leader a try. Yes, I SAID MY HUSBAND! Isn’t that amazing? I know it’s something he would feel he couldn’t do if I still wanted to because he would feel the need to stay home with the kiddos if I went. But, look, I got out of the way and he stepped in!
He’s nervous and a bit stressed about it but I know that once he gets going he’ll be just fine.
I wonder what else he could do if I just stepped out of the way? I won’t lie, it’s got me thinking 🙂
God is at work. I love it!
First of all, Happy Birthday to our fearless leader, Shannon 🙂 Hope you had a great day!
Ok, so I’m not exactly sure what I am going write about from Proverbs. I will say I really like this form of study though. One chapter a day with some focus of finding verses that apply to what I want fix in my life. I think the hardest part is concentrating on the one issue I had picked out because when I read Proverbs, about 1billion other things pop up that I could be working on as well.
So, basically, conviction was the name of the game this week.
This is short, partly because my computer is acting up and causing me to have to type slowly which I so don’t do and partly because I’ve had a very pregnant day and just want to wallow in my self pity and go to bed 🙂
I’ll do better next week, I promise.