Leaving on a jet plane?

I might possibly be doing that on Friday or Saturday. Apparently our ability to make such a big decision and actually book a flight is a whole ‘nother story. It’s not that I don’t want to go, it’s more that I obsess about every detail and as I may have documented many times in the past, I’m not so good at the decision making. I’m trying to get Mike to just make it for me. He already booked the time off so that’s a start I suppose.

Now let me tell you where and why I might be going. My Aunt Grace, my mom’s oldest sister, just found out that her prognosis is not good. She has been battling cancer for a few years now. First in her lungs and then most recently in her brain. Originally they thought it was very treatable and she might have many years left but since then, new tumors have emerged on her brain and the news we got a few days ago is that she has about two to seven weeks to live. She lives in London, ON.

My mom left this morning for a week’s visit with her to and stay with her other sister that lives close by. If I went, it wouldn’t be until Friday afternoon or Saturday morning and then I would be back on Tuesday.

It’s strange in a way that I really feel the need to go. This aunt has lived on Ontario my whole life. I’ve met her only a handful of times. I really don’t know her that well. But for some reason, I really want to go see her before she dies. Before, I supposed I would go to her funeral when she passed away. But then I got thinking, if I am going to make the trip, why not do it while she was living?

Seems like a no brainer in some ways. In other ways, it’s a tough decision. Flying is expensive. Flying ALONE is, uh, SCARY! And, I’ve never left my daughter over night. Ever. I suppose there has to be a first time but that just might be the hardest part for me. Separation. As much as a little mommy break might sound tempting, I know I will miss her the minute I get on the plane. She really isn’t old enough to understand why the mommy who NEVER leaves her has to be gone for 3 or 4 days. That part will be hard.

Anyway, so I suppose I might actually have to get to booking some flights if I really intend to go anywhere.

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  1. i have a feeling that if i were in your shoes, i’d want to get on a plane and go for that last visit too. if you do end up going, have a safe trip and thankfully C has a very good daddy to take care of her while you are gone!

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