That seems like a lofty thing for me to write since I can’t even seem to get out of bed for any length of time these days. Will someone please tell me that this extreme fatigue will go away soon? I can’t even function and I’m not handling it very well. For instance, after a particularly horrible sleep last night I was not too fun this morning. I’m not sure if Mike was joking or not when he asked me to “please stop acting like you’re on your death bed”. And since I felt like I was on my death bed this remark sent me flying back to bed bawling my eyes out.
I know, not so mature.
C followed me into bed asking why I was so sad and all I can tell her is that I don’t feel good. She of course can’t understand how much energy this tiny baby is zapping from me and I don’t want her to think her little brother or sister in there is hurting mommy.
Anyway, so my point is this. I’ve set some goals recently, mostly regarding C, but those goals seems a bit too much for me at the moment. I’ve decided that setting goals like getting out of bed and trying to be cheerful are much more attainable than potty training. I’m hoping that this first trimester is the hardest and that things look up soon because we are SO potty training before this new baby arrives.
I am happy to report that we have C sleeping through the night again which is a great relief. Once we found out about new baby, we knew the sooner we got her back to her own bed the better. It took about two weeks for her to completly quit waking up in the night and crying for us. We had to gate her door which I sort of felt was mean at first but it keeps her out of our room which is necessary since I don’t have the sense at night to take her to back to bed once she comes in with us. Yeah, so that’s good news.
Anyway, I wish I could tell you that I read the first six chapters of Nehemiah more than once but I’d be lying if I said that. I know I’m missing out though because it really is good stuff. Honestly, the whole ‘mind to work’ thing has been playing in my head. Mostly since I don’t have a mind to do anything. But I think if I was really trusting God and really surrendering even my weakest moments to Him that I would be able to accomplish more in a day. I’m not looking to rebuild any walls at the moment but I would like to at least get my laundry done.
Alright, I think that’s all I can say. I seriously hope I can sleep tonight or magically become one of those people who can actually function on small amounts of sleep 🙂