Boy, am I grouchy today. And I don’t know why. Now I’m mad at myself for not handling situations with C the way I should have this morning. And that makes me more grouchy.
Dive into the Bible, Jenn! Just do it! So easy to say but why is it so hard to do? I think my problem is I give up on myself very easily. Like I don’t trust myself or something.
I didn’t mean to turn this blog into a place where I complain all the time but I know that’s all I’ve been doing lately. When I really think about it, I really don’t have alot to be complaining about. God has answered some prayers lately and what do I do? I head deeper back into the pit instead of being in awe and constantly thankful. Now I’m afraid He’s going to go back on His answers. Does God do that?
I think I’m just mad that it’s so hard for me to change. I take a few steps forward and about 84 steps back. Makes it harder to get those forward steps again. Sigh.
I have so many reasons to go forward so why do I keep falling back?