Oscar the grouch

Boy, am I grouchy today. And I don’t know why. Now I’m mad at myself for not handling situations with C the way I should have this morning. And that makes me more grouchy.

Dive into the Bible, Jenn! Just do it! So easy to say but why is it so hard to do? I think my problem is I give up on myself very easily. Like I don’t trust myself or something.

I didn’t mean to turn this blog into a place where I complain all the time but I know that’s all I’ve been doing lately. When I really think about it, I really don’t have alot to be complaining about. God has answered some prayers lately and what do I do? I head deeper back into the pit instead of being in awe and constantly thankful. Now I’m afraid He’s going to go back on His answers. Does God do that?

I think I’m just mad that it’s so hard for me to change. I take a few steps forward and about 84 steps back. Makes it harder to get those forward steps again. Sigh.

I have so many reasons to go forward so why do I keep falling back?



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2 responses to “Oscar the grouch

  1. Geralyn

    Jenn, I struggle with my daily bible reading and devotionals, as well, and often do not fit them in. I know it should be the other way around, that should come first and all the other stuff should be fit in, but it’s easier said than done. Satan is always looking for a weak spot to work his way back into our lives, but I believe all we can do is pray to God to give us the strength to resist. I think we just need to talk to God – he already knows our weaknesses and he knows our hearts, but I think laying everything before Him also makes us more aware of them. Just never give up; as long as you’re aware there is a distance between you and God, then you can pray about it and work on it. And God never goes back on his word.

  2. Thanks for the words of encouragement Geralyn 🙂

    And I know you’re right…

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