Yesterday I mentioned that I was frustrated over the fact that I had nothing to say and no reason as to why my relationship with the Lord wasn’t going so well.
But today I read something that explains EXACTLY how I feel. So much so that I was kinda shocked and had to read it a few times over.
A friend loaned me a book called Things Unseen by Mark Buchanan. I don’t read much lately since it’s all I can do to find time to try and read my Bible. But I picked it up last night anyway and started in.
I’m not going to give much explanation I’m just going to type out a little of what Mr. Buchanan wrote:
“The world is booby-trapped. It’s rigged for disappointment. On Earth everything falls short of some hoped-for ideal. Everything good down here has a tragic brevity and a funny aftertaste to it. It all falls short and shortly falls apart. None of it possess ultimacy.
In response, we can become so cynical that we poison oursleves, so self-indulgent that we devour oursleves, so despairing that we collapse into ourselves. In fact, self-pity and self-indulgence, boredom and despair, envy and greed – such are only yearning gone sour. They are just the greasy residue that remains after yearning has gone unfulfulled too many times. A sadness like ash settles on our doings and our desires. We find trinkets to fiddle with, trivia to distract us. A once burning zeal dwindles to a dry itch, and everything becomes a frantic attempt to get passion back, or a plodding resignation to its death.”
Yep, that’s how I feel. Can’t explain it any better than that.
Looking forward to the rest of this book 🙂