Jenn rambles on

In my last post I mentioned the sermon that our Pastor preached on Sunday morning. I just wanted to give you the proper link so you can listen to it. Because you should.

Click here and then scroll down to the bottom and click on April 27th.

Please excuse my review tardiness. It’s been a busy weekend around here. My sisters baby shower was yesterday at my house. We had a really good time and lots of people came, although we missed an important few who were under the weather. We’re still reaping the benefits of the fabulous food that Michelle’s friend Kelli made. She’s good I tell ya, you should get her to cater something for you

Anyway, on to Jude. I like the small books, I find it easier to concentrate on what I am reading because there is less to digest. And I found Jude to be a pretty clear and concise warning about those in or around the church that are not teaching the true Gospel of Jesus Christ. We’re being taught here in this small book to be aware, to not get sucked in by the wishy washy and to make sure that what we are being taught, or listening to, or reading is the truth. Nothing else will do but the true Word of God.

It’s a message to stand up for what we know is right. To not back down because we may face opposition. Jude starts by saying that he was “planning to write to you about the salvation we all share. But now I find that I must write about something else, urging you to defend the truth of the Good News.” Chapter 1:3 Jude goes on to talk about the Godless people that have wormed their way in among them. And I am sure that there are Godless people that have wormed their way in amongst us too. We must not be fooled by them.

We’re given a detailed look at what these “worms” will look like. We’ve been warned. We have no excuses to follow them and be fooled. If we stay in God’s word, we will know the truth. That’s why it is so important to know the Bible because sometimes we can be innocently fooled by those who twist the words of scripture to make them sound different then they are. It’s a dangerous and scary thought.

If you don’t attend out church or couldn’t be there this morning I very much suggest you listen to this mornings message online at www.weston.cfc.org because it was so important and so informative. In my opinion it went along well with what we learned from Jude this week. Pastor spoke on 2 Thessalonians 1:1-12. I won’t go into any long explanation because he says it better than I ever could so hopfefully it’ll be up soon and you will listen to it. It was a great warning and a great eye opener for us not to be idle in our Christian walks and our churches but to pay attention to what is happening around us in the world. Seriously, you need to listen to it

Ok, that’s all I have to say.

This afternoon C and I were out in the backyard swinging on her new playset. That girl would swing continuously if I let her…can’t wait till she learns to pump her own legs so I don’t have to push her. Anyway, a bird called in the background somewhere and C says, “Hey, I hear the Price is Right!”

Turns out she thought the bird call sounded like when people spin the big wheel

I like me a game show, no harm there…and she learns big numbers like $600 and $1450. Very educational…so I tell myself. Teehee.

On Saturday I attended a small ladies retreat at Fellowship Baptist Church. The theme of the day was Lord, teach me to pray. The speaker was Julie Andrews (no, not THAT Julie Andrews) and I think she did a great job of pointing to the very specific scriptures that teach us how to pray and how NOT to pray.

I learned alot but do you know what I came away with that stuck? Well, I’ll tell you in a second. I do know that lately I have not been praying nearly enough to survive…almost literally. I’ve known for awhile that my prayer life is lacking and I know that this is a huge reason (if not the only reason) that I can’t seem to get closer to the Lord. So, I am committing myself (again) to become the prayer person I want to be (agian). I try and fail often but with my new found Biblical knowledge of prayer, I will give it another go. It’s worth it. It’s SO worth it.

Anyway, the thing that really stuck with me was that I do not pray for my husband. That’s dumb. I need to pray for him. Especially since I want him to the head of our family. Especially since I want him to be our spiritual leader here at Jenn Rambles On. I do too much rambling and not enough praying. That goes for the blog, that goes for my family, and that especially goes for my marriage.

So, not only did I have a great day of fellowship with like-minded believer ladies but God also allowed me to make some realizations. This is good.

And, I also won a book which I am looking forward to starting called Pierced by the Word by John Piper. Winning is fun. Winning what I’m pretty sure is a quality book is even more fun

Good night!

There might have been alot of golf watching around our house this weekend. The Masters has a strange effect on all of us. My husband is a golf fan but I must admit, I’ve developed a strange habit of enjoying watching golf on TV the last few years myself. Weird, isn’t it? I thought so. I mean, I am an appreciater of sport for sure but I always thought golf was the most boring thing on television.

Anyway, all three of us were paying attention but apparently C was learning more than we thought. Everytime a golfer came on the screen - which is often because they have to show everyone numerous times - she wanted to know what his name was. So after a day or so of telling her, she knew them all.

Our 2.5 year old could often be heard saying things like, “Yay, Tiger Woods got it in the hole!” or “Good shot Trevor Immelman!” But my personal favorite from yesterday was, “Oh, come on Brandt Snedekar, you can do better than that.” I don’t know why but I find the fact that she recognizes him AND remembers and prounounces his name correctly very amusing.

Her sporting interest doesn’t stop at golf she also loves watching curling, bowling, and hockey to name a few.

I think I’m ok with this

I’m posting a review. Partly because I should but mostly because there is NO WAY I can turn down a double dog dare. It must be the competiveness in me. So I must, I MUST post something. It might not be deep but there will be a word or two. If you have no idea what I’m talking about head on over to Shannon’s and find out about book review friday. You so should do that. Now.

This week we were reading Romans 14-16. I’m really only going to touch on two verses today. It’s something I underlined previously and it’s back to haunt remind me.

Chapter 14:7-8  For we don’t live for ourselves or die for ourselves.  If we live, it’s to honor the Lord. And if we die, it’s to honor the Lord. So whether we live or die, we belong to the Lord.

As soon as I read this again I felt convicted. Convicted about the way I’m living my life and who I’m living for. Can I say that I’m living for the Lord? Sure, I can say it, but that doesn’t mean it’s so. I can also probably do a pretty good job of convincing others that I’m living for the Lord but where is my heart really? I can honestly say that my heart’s not in it and hasn’t been for awhile. It’s not that I don’t want to be, I just got tripped up along the way. Fooled by the world and fooled by the idea that I can’t concentrate on my family while living for the Lord. I don’t have it all firgured out yet because if I did, I think I could fix it. I just can’t seem to balance family and still have the attitude I need to have for God. I have to remember that because I am saved (thankfully) I need to start feeling that again. That my home is not here, and that I’m waiting to go home and should be trying my best to please the Lord while I’m here waiting.

I don’t know if that made any sense. And that’s ok if it didn’t, it got me thinking and I guess that’s what’s important. It’s one of those verses that plunges into your heart and sort of twists around and makes you feel uncomfortable with yourself…which I guess would be what conviction is

Ok, now I shall go and link.

It’s fun to have a visual sometimes. I was reading up on week 15 and the baby is the size of a teaspoon and weighs like 3 ounces. Boy do I feel even bigger now knowing the baby is so tiny!

In something totally unrelated; If you left delicious cookies on my doorstep yesterday please ‘fess up so I can thank you properly. They were appreciated!

Update: Thank you Mrs. D for the surprise cookies!! they were delicious!!

This morning I had my first OB appointment of this pregnancy and I got to hear the heartbeat for the first time. It almost felt like a reflief, that all the crappy feeling days I’ve had are actually for a reason. There really is a little beating heart in there. I mean, I was pretty sure there was because I can even feel some movement but sometimes I just doubted. I don’t know why. So, I’m happy to report that it’s alive and kicking and the growing baby bump actually seems to contain a baby

Up until yesterday I sort of forgot what pregnancy produces. Feeling sick all the time made me loose focus on what the end result will bring. A tiny little snuggly baby that we love no matter if it has colic and cries all the time and never sleeps…like the first one did.

I made this realization yesterday as I was moving the box that the new infant car carrier seat was in and I remembered how small they are when you bring them home and how tiny and helpless it will be. And now I’m excited and I want September 30th to get here faster.

In the meantime, we have an important decision to make. I say “we” but I really mean me. My daughter’s birth was - well, traumatic for me and probably for her as well. I was in labour for more than 17 hours and pushed for 4 making very little progress with getting her moved out. I was so exhausted I begged for a C-section because I just wanted the whole thing to be over and to hold my little girl…and also get some sleep. I’m skipping alot of information, like how the nurses were no help at all and how the on-call Dr wasn’t called until I finally demanded he be brought in, and how nobody monitored my epidural after it was administered so basically once it wore off, that was it. I had no idea what I could ask for and what I was entitled to.  I’m also leaving out the part of how awful it was to be in recovery after the C-section while my husband got to show off our new baby to the whole family and I was the only one who wasn’t a part of it. I’m leaving out how we didn’t bond for like ever and she wouldn’t nurse and ended up being bottle fed. Yup, I’m leaving all that stuff out.

So, this time we are going to be informed. We are going to make a birth plan and be very insistant that it go according to said plan.

I still haven’t made up my mind about whether or not I want to try a natural birth this time as opposed to a scheduled section. There is a big part of me that doesn’t trust my body to be able to do it since I couldn’t last time. I know that psychologically, I need to be the right “place”  in my mind to be able to do that. I’m scared, I’m not gonna lie. There are risks, although very minimal. It’s a very difficult decision. If anyone reading has an experience with VBAC I would love to hear what you have to say. Feel free to comment or comment saying you’d like to email me and I will write you back and you can share if ya want to.

I am happy though that my OB is very open to whatever decison we want to make. She is informative and wants me to ask questions and make a decision that I am comfortable with. I’m happy about this and I know that she’ll be supportive in whatever we decide. The only problem is, she is moving to BC and might not be around by the time my baby is born. Aw, that would be sad.

I think what I’m missing here as I read back over this post is prayer. I think if I really commit myself to find out what God thinks is the right thing then He will tell me. My problem lately is committing anything to prayer. Sad, I know, but I think I need to smarten up as this is one of the most important decisions I’ve ever had to make. It might not seem important to some but it really is to me. I would really like to have a pleasant birthing experience this time, which ever form that may take.

Ok, the end

I’m linking to this guy Matt Maher because he’s good and I think I win one of his CD’s…I think. Anyway, go to the site, listen and check him out, I like his voice and his style of Christian music. And if you hurry, you might win one too!

Thank you, b-bye.

EDIT: Guess what else? He was born and raised in Newfoundland! Which makes him way cooler because he’s Canadian, eh? I thought that was interesting

And in case you were wondering, I did actually win a CD. Yay! But the contest is now closed.

I just feel like an update is needed because I went ahead and changed my blog look without posting an update. I don’t know why that matters but it does ok so get over it

So I think the worst is over with the crazy pregnancy related yuckiness. And I hesitate to say that in case I’m wrong but I’ve been feeling pretty ok for the last couple of weeks with the exception of a day or two where I over did it or ate too much. I’m no longer napping in the afternoon which is a good sign. There were quite a few weeks there that I serioulsy NEEDED the nap to survive. Literally - to survive. And even then it didn’t really seem to help much. So I’m feeling pretty good about being awake more. Also, I’m starting to be able to cook again…although I’m still not enjoying the cooking, at least I can do it. I’m sure my husband is happy ’bout that. He ate alot of grilled cheese sandwiches.

And in case you don’t live here and can’t see me on occasion, I’m huge. For 14 weeks I’m huge. And I was with C too so I know it’s kinda what I do but seriously? This big already? I’m tempted to wonder about twins…although I quickly shove that possibility out of my mind because, HELLO! SCARY THOUGHT! I need to go shopping. My wardrobe is about one pair of jeans and two shirts at the moment…well, not counting sweats and t-shirts of course.

Ok, I think I’m done updating you for the time being. Until I think of something equally as lame to post about